Real Kato Blog: A Wasted Day

There are so many things that I want to do, and so many things I should be doing, but some days I just crawl away and hide.

I found it to be an odd coincidence that tonight's episode of "Grey's Anatomy" talked about adult responsibility, because most of my day was spent shirking those kinds of responsibilities. (That, by the way, is another example of something that is NOT ironic.)

I have a long list of to-do items. I need to take my car in for its annual state inspection. I need to renew my passport. I need to properly recycle my NiCad and LiIon batteries. I need to throw more stuff away. I need to finish my home improvement projects.

I also have a long list of things I want to do. I want to learn Spanish... and French, and Italian, and Japanese. I want to write a book, write a screenplay, compose music, paint pictures, and practice playing piano and guitar. I want to hike the Grand Canyon and the Appalachian Trail. I want to travel around the world.

But I run into days like today, where mostly I just... sit.

I don't know what it is, lately. I'm just not motivated to do anything. I say to myself, "Why should I do things, when I have no one to answer to? What's the point?" And yes, I know what the answer to that question is, but it's so much easier to just say, "Screw it, I'm going to read blogs and play video games and watch TV all day. Maybe I'll stop every now and then to eat a piece of salami."

I think it's partly the curse of being single. It's hard to remind myself that it's worthwhile to improve myself for my own sake.

I don't know where I'm going with this. I guess I just feel kind of lethargic and useless right now, and I wanted to get that off my chest. I'll get over it, don't worry. I always have before.

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