Real Kato Blog: Finding My Own Hall of Fame

How will people remember me?

As most of you probably recall, a few weeks ago my friend Javi got inducted into our high school hall of fame. During the ceremony, Javi was deservingly showered with accolades about his talent and his selflessness.

I've been reflecting lately about whether it's possible that I would be likewise honored, someday. I kinda doubt it.

I was a good student, to be sure... I graduated sixth in a class of over six hundred people. I hold the record for the highest grade ever earned in auto shop. (Really.) But I was a troublemaker at times, too: I antagonized several of my teachers and classmates; sometimes, especially during my senior year, I fell asleep in class; and one time, I and another guy tried to turn someone's locker into an aquarium. I don't think those are the kind of the things that earn you a trophy.

It's not as if I have a lifetime of achievements to back me up, either. What have I done? I've led a safe and boring life. I've been in the same city, and the same White Bread Career Track, ever since I've graduated. I've never really taken many risks, unless you count that time I ate the questionable food from my freezer. Unless there's a trophy for Most Years Spent in a Cubicle, I'm not going to win anything on that count either.

But you know what? It's okay. I've never been one for the spotlight. I don't need the recognition of hundreds of faceless strangers. All I really want is the affection of my friends. I want to know that I've done the right things for the people I love. I want to live with a clear conscience and a happy heart. That is what tells me that I am not just some average schlub, making it from day to day. When it comes to my relationships with my friends, I live an exceptional life, and I wouldn't trade that for anything.

Don't get me wrong: I wouldn't shun fame and adoration, and I don't hold anything against those who seek it. I guess I'm just saying, I've found contentment with the recognition I already get.

Of course, my path doesn't come with Yunjin Kim. Damn.

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